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INTERVIEW WITH A SHAMAN
The Spirit of a Thunder Spirit
By Jai Tiger
One of the great blessings that I have in my work is meeting so many different
kinds of people expressing a diversity of work that in its great common heart
has one purpose. Sometimes as I travel to meet people, I am not sure what to
expect. On my way to meet Walks with Thunder, I had to smile at the images my
mind offered for what a Shaman of Indian and Hispanic descent would look like.
My imagination settled on a casual pale skin guy in jeans, a T-shirt with Native
American design, a long gray braid, headband, a lot of Indian necklaces and
bracelets, perhaps a hand-sewn leather bag with beads, feathers, and totems
dangling off of it and a pack of cigarettes rolled up in his T-shirt.
So when Walks with Thunder asked me “So, do I look like a Shaman to you?” I
laughed and said “Yes” because he did...but not at like I pictured. The only
visual cue you might find of Walks with Thunder’s heritage is the simple
turquoise thunderbird he wears on a silver chain around his neck and, that he
looks Indian. I answered ‘Yes’ to this gentle unpretentious teacher, because he
felt like a Shaman to me.
We were sitting side by side going over materials on his laptop when something
happened. He had turned to me and with a playful expression on his face, asked
me a question about desserts. My mind was confused and as I looked at him I saw
a transformation in his face and felt a tremendous energy coming through, a very
loving nurturing grandparent energy. Suddenly I felt very warm and to my
embarrassment, tears started falling from my eyes. I told him that I was having
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Walks with Thunder apologized and asked if I would like to receive a balancing
and an energy transfer. A few moments later I was back ‘together’ until the
energy transfer…when he put his hands on either side of my face, there was an
intense heat and I felt again this loving nurturing grandfather and tears
streamed down my face. In the middle of the Poulsbohemian Coffeehouse, Walks
with Thunder handled this well. He explained that he is Shaman Born; his
Grandfather was a Shaman for the Caddo tribe, as was his father before him. He
told me that feeling this loving grandfather spirit coming through is just a
spiritual experience that generates an emotional response from the soul. “It is
like receiving or remembering the revelation that the Creator loves you and puts
people here to help you. When you meet these people it can be a very emotional
experience. It’s okay. It means you have heart and it’s full.”
As my new helper took his seat across the table, I was finally able to get out
my first question:
JT: “When were you first aware of your unique abilities, that you were a
Shaman?”
WWT: My first metaphysical memory was when I was one and a half years old. I was
laying in bed looking out the window and I saw balls of colored lights in the
trees and I wanted to go play with the fairies. I was in the process of crawling
out the window to join them when my sister pulled me back in and told me I could
not go. I had seen things all my life but I had no context to understand them.
Raised by my hispanic mother, I was not aware that I was Native. When I was 27 I
called my mother and told her that I was going to check myself into a mental
institution because I was seeing so many things I felt I was going insane. She
then told me the family secret - that she was the illegitimate daughter of a
Shaman and that this was perhaps why I was experiencing these things. I never
met my grandfather but spirits like to return to same families.
JT: This is who I met then today, your Shaman Within, your grandfather. He has a
very palpable presence. When you learned this, how did you feel about all of it?
WWT: I wanted it to stop. It was an intrusion on my ‘normal’ everyday
technological life. It was 1989 and I was working for the Dept. of Commerce as a
data processing manager with 50 people working under me. I was so uncomfortable
when I would see spirits that I would tell the visage that I was uncomfortable
and that I wanted it to stop. When I saw my first dark spirit, it really
unnerved me. Then second time it made me angry, and then the third time I
threatened it so it went away. I felt these experiences were an intrusion into
my world or my perception of life as it should be. That changed the day of the
explosion. |
JT: The day of the explosion?
WWT: Yes, it was the day I first saw my guardian spirit. A little thunder spirit
came out of the wall by the electrical outlet. I got a very strong feeling of
uneasiness and told it “I’m uncomfortable seeing you, leave me alone…I’m going
to get a donut.” While I was getting a donut trying to calm down, there was an
electrical malfunction which hit the $120,000 computer and literally destroyed
it. Had I been working at the computer, I would have been electrocuted.
JT: So the next time you saw the thunder spirit…?
WWT: I was a little happier to see it! I understood that its message was “Its
going to be ok, I’m here.” I realized that before the explosion, the little
thunder-lightning bolt I had seen flying out of the wall socket showed up to
warn me that something bad was about to happen.
JT: How do you feel about the thunder spirit now?
WWT: A very sweet smile fills his face as he throws his head back to the sky.
Well, when I talk to the Thunder Nation, they do things for me. They love me,
I’m one of their favorites!
JT: This was how you were able to help with hurricane Rita? (Walks with Thunder
and I had talked two days before the hurricane was due to hit and he had been
working on it. He told me that it would decrease from a Category 5 hurricane to
a level one storm.)
WWT: Yes, my guardian spirit is a Thunder Spirit. Ed told me this is relatively
rare, they usually don’t associate with humans. Ed told me that my thunder
spirit other form is a Thunderbird with a 3 mile wingspan!
JT: Who is Ed?
WWT: Ed Whiting is a Shaman I went to see in Pine Ridge South Dakota. It was at
a turning point in my life. When I first got there, he made me very
uncomfortable. His guide is Emerald Man and while we were talking, it kept
turning his face sparkly and green. Ed explained why I was seeing this so I told
Emerald Man it made me uncomfortable and to stop and he did. Ed explained to me
that the little thunder spirit was my guardian. It was 1998 when I was at Ed’s
and I had left my old world.
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JT: What happened at Ed’s?
WWT: I went through 10 days of ‘subtle’ testing! This began when he had me sleep
in the basement and all the spirits that he sees kept coming and waking me up
during the night. This reallyannoyed me because I was tired and I wanted to
sleep. Some of the spirits were not so friendly but I felt safe because I was at
Ed’s and I commanded the spirits to stop waking me up and they did. The next
morning Ed told me to not assume I was safe and to say this phrase: “Let me
pass, I do not worship you"
”JT: What did you say? |
WWT: I said “And that is going to get me out of deep dark trouble?” I didn’t
believe him until I used it on the lawn mower.
JT: On the lawn mower?
WWT: Yes, it was my day of testing where I was not allowed to come in out of the
120 degree heat until all the lawn was mowed and I had learned the lesson I was
suppose to learn. After hours of mowing in the heat, I tried to go back inside
but I was told to stay outside until I had learned the lesson I was suppose to
learn. I was the only one outside. I told myself “I already know how to mow the
lawn.”
I looked over and there was a patch of lawn that hadn’t been mowed and it was in
shade. I told myself, “I’m going to go mow over there. If there’s something for
me to learn, I’m going to learn it in the shade. I started mowing, cutting in a
square. When the mower got to a certain spot it died and I began to feel very
hot and like something was pressing on my chest. Being stuck in my technological
mind, I checked the mower thoroughly and I could not find any mechanical reason
for it to not run. Finally, I got the mower running but when I reached that spot
again, the mower died. And the feeling of heat and the terrible pressure on my
chest returned. I was annoyed at the mower, there was no ‘reason’ for it to
stop! I got it started again and worked my way around the square to the same
spot where the mower died again and the crushing symptoms returned. I was just
unwilling to accept that a metaphysical force had stopped a physical engine.
This time it was very very hard to breathe and the pressure on my chest was
stronger. I said to myself “OK “I’m being messed with and I can fix it.” I said
in a very sarcastic way, “Let me pass, I do not worship you.” Suddenly I could
breathe, it wasn’t so hot, I pulled on the cord and the mower started and I
finished. When I went inside my friend asked me, “Did you learn the lesson? I
said “Yes…you’d be surprised what a cagey old man can do to you.”
JT: How did it end with Ed?
WWT: Ed told me at the end of the ten days “You came here because you wanted all
these ‘bad things’ to stop and I have bad news for you. The spirit world is
calling you because you have a gift and you are not using it, you are not
sharing it and so they intrude on your normal everyday technological life to
show you that there is more, that there is something else you are meant to do.
So your choice is, you can either embrace your gift and use it or ignore it and
continue to be a victim of your gift.”
JT: So what happened after this?
WWT: So I asked the grandfather spirits to teach me gently. I get taught in my
sleep. There have been a couple of lessons that have been really hard to learn.
I’ve learned that I have to be careful about my will, and my intent, and how I
feel about things. Ed explained to me that how I have been taught and the things
I know how to do, the powers I have, are the result of my grandfather’s spirit
reborn through me with his knowledge and power.
JT: You have a true shaman within!
WWT: I was able to see Grandfather spirits at age two and bilocated at fourteen.
I didn’t know those things were special. I thought every one could do it, and
you know I was right. I have been on the Red Road a long time before I even knew
there was a Red Road. I live the life of a Wacasa Wakan, I don’t drink alcohol,
don’t smoke (sometimes at a ceremony), don’t drink coffee, and use no
recreational pharmaceuticals. It’s a spiritual choice. I didn’t learn the way of
the Shaman from another Shaman. I prefer to be called a Shaman instead of a
Medicine Man because the term Medicine Man was a misnomer by the white settlers.
What the shaman was doing was healing with power and the settler interpreted the
word power for medicine.
Everything I do is with will and intent. I think it should be so and there it
is. Knowing what I know and seeing what I see, I have absolute faith that there
is a creator and there is a plan. By embracing my gift and sharing it with
people, I follow what I am meant to do. This information comes from a pure state
and it is things that everyone knows how to do, it is within you to do it. It is
as easy as daydreaming and everybody knows how to do that! Within you is your
soul that makes you unique, that gives you the sweetness of who you are. You
draw on your faith and the power of your soul. What I do is very powerful yet
very simple and things everyone can do once they learn to believe in themselves.
We said goodbye at my car and I felt like I had found a new friend. As I turned
away, I heard him call back to me softly, “I like your name.” I looked back
excitedly, it was his Grandfather’s spirit again...”Thank you,” I replied
thinking of my first name when the Shaman within Walks with Thunder sweetly
called back to me, “Tiger!” smiled and walked away, his energy leaving me
feeling giddy.
Walks with Thunder has many many stories, from a cancer healing miracle at
Medicine Bear’s sweat lodge ceremony to finding a lost briefcase with $30,000 in
jewels and being gifted two boxes of Girlscout cookies in return. But rather
than reading more, best would be for you to join him at one of his fall classes
listed in the events section! I’ll see you there! If you’d like to connect with
Walks with Thunder, please feel free to call him at 360-275-1914. |
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